so sick tonite. mucous causing brain to go in a thousand different directions. the mucous is mighty. beware its milky visage!

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1. jealousy as derivative of fear. discussion w/ lise in burrito hut.

2. discussion w/ elizabeth at perkins friday night. I say, "I don't want you to feel like you ever have to censor the things you say, you can tell me anything." she thinks a moment then says, "but you never talk about your stuff."

3. saved a Word document titled "the future". text at bottom of window says, "Word is saving the future."

4. I must stop fucking with people. but I'm trying to get at something important, that's why I can't let it rest. if I can finish the game in a particular way, then I get a special prize.

5. mucouuuuus.

6. I earn my keep. I'm not going to be able to stop fucking with you; but I'm pretty low-key and I'll do anything you need, just ask me.

7. tonite's episode of Angel, both poorly-written and homoerotic. so I'm torn.

8. my little sister now has a rabbit named Nike. she likes to chew through electrical cords and there are pellets everywhere. and yet she is so fluffy and you want her to pay attention to you. you court her affections with carrots.

9. caught my reflection in mom's bedroom mirror earlier. no shirt, low-slung pajama bottoms and hair pinned up behind a white 'do-rag. am so sexy! am going to waste.

10. have this soundclip playing in the back of my head from the movie French Kiss, where Kate and Luc are on a train through the French countryside and Kate has a bout of lactose intolerance and she yells, "the mucous! the mucous is coming!" and also where Kate and Luc first meet on the plance to France and Kate asks Luc if he believes in romantic love and he answers, "well, but-- that is not an interesting question."

11. stories about angels

12. the neon sanke with too much sumi

13. I can turn a mild fever into a crisis like nuthin'. I'ma take some NyQuil. tomorrow: peace in the kingdom and an interesting question.